Most of the shirts now have words printed on them. It may be of any random quotes or just whatever phrases being plastered on those shirts but people are definitely wearing them. I may not be a big fan of those but I sure do have one. It reads, " All about me" in plain green. Now, you might be wondering where I am going with this out-of-the-blue-topic, well... just continue reading... HAHA.
It all happened in a certain day, of a certain time, at a certain place, with some certain friends. We were just sitting around and trying to start a conversation when I saw a man in his mid 50s, wearing a large bright fuchsia T-shirt. The imprints on it is just like the chart that you get to look at every time you visit your ophthalmologist. Well, technically it is called a snellen chart but the letters were different. So it was at that moment that I said: " Everyone, tingin kayo sa likod niyo!", because we were facing each other at that time. The guy was about 2 - 3 meters away and everyone is squinting, trying to read the letters, especially the really small ones at the bottom part. We were laughing and we were also so embarrassed because the man kept looking at us. I laughed even harder when my sister stood up and actually walked closer to him to take a look at the shirt, in a casual-like manner. I was already giggling so hard that I can feel my face turning red hot. HAHA. Today is one awesome day! Thank You Lord! That's all folks! Thanks for reading. Hope you enjoyed.
The point to maturity. Where does it start? Going to the next step of life. Where do you begin? Questions and plans, questions and plans. What do they even mean?
I have been studying throughout my whole life. That is, before these chains finally broke. The chains of education and school, but never the chain of learning, have finally loosened and clashed to the ground. For me, education is plain studying but learning is growing. Education tangles every pupil only up till their graduation but learning is a never ending process of acquiring more knowledge throughout one's life. I have never loved studying but I have always loved learning. People can study a whole book but can never learn all its contents, whereas some can learn a whole lot of things that can never be found in any book.
From being a brown, to a gray, then violet and finally a green and gold, I still remembered my first day as a freshman Tamaraw. Stomach full of butterflies, I walked along the hallway looking at my COR, trying to find my room. At that time, I could have never guessed that I would spend my four years of college, living and practicing medical technology. Books, reviews, studies and more books have surrounded me for all those years. And now, after putting on my toga and cap, I felt like my life have just finally begun. I thank God to everything that have happened to me, especially for blessing me with people that have been so wonderful to me. I am now very proud to say that I am finally a full fanged Med. Tech. and would be able to help others through my God-given skills. At long last, I am crossing the line. Only the Lord will know what would happen to me. So I would definitely stay tuned and pray that He may reveal His plans to me.
Broken once and trampled for so many times, I felt old, miserable and trapped. Always flowing through the never ending constant motion of life and trying to break free from the four corners of my mind; I had already asked myself if this is what living is all about. Had prayed to God for a million times but still felt like a little ragged doll in the inside. Struggling with battles against myself, trying to win but with failures defeating me every step of the way. But God had once again proved His mercy and love for a little lost sheep like me. At first, I was still dubious when He made His call. Hesitation made me give an undecided answer. It was only at the last minute that I made up my mind to attend the invitation. You can call it chance, you can call it coincidence or luck but I really felt that God is somehow wanting me to know Him all over again and to finally accept my weaknesses. Because of that invitation, I was able to join a summer camp. My first ever and He made it very memorable which I will always cherish. He showed me all His wonders and creations. Made me realized how small and insignificant people really are but in the eyes of the Lord, He still loves us no matter who we are. I witnessed His works on dusk and dawns. Painting the dark skies into indescribable awe of colors and lights. The nights there are cool with breath taking million dots of twinkling stars and the days are warm and hot with radiant of sunlight. Time itself seems to freeze and the earth seems to stop. Waking each day to the sound of the tip tapping of a soft rain, thinking if yesterday was real or just a dream.
I have this irrational thought that I may have laughter and fun today but tomorrow would be of misery and loneliness. But the Lord God have taught me that this is not so and had opened me up with much wisdom and understandings. I learned to rededicate my life to our Savior Lord Jesus Christ and to redirect my ways. For a long time, I have been walking astray without really knowing that I am going the wrong way. A wrong turn proved itself fatal. Also that, being an introverted lot that I am, I still couldn't believe that God had blessed me with new friends. Wonderful people that will always have a place in my heart. Memories, jokes, stories and laughs that have been shared will always be treasured for the rest of my life. Everything that God had done and will be doing are undeserving gifts from Him to us. Countless times of protection and care that He had provided may be unknown to us, but one thing's for sure to me, He loves us. The only thing that He asks in return is also our love for Him.
Why can't things be easy? There's always so many crooks and turns laid out in our paths. April is not starting out very nicely for me. My grandmother was just rushed into the hospital last March 31, 2012. Reasons for admission is only loss of appetite, fever, muscle weakness and indigestion. Common symptoms for a simple cold, but now the doctors have diagnosed her of Pneumonia and insisted that she be confined. She wasn't even coughing before. Hospital, laboratory and misc. fees burden us down. Manpower and other resources are thinning out. Needles, catheters and drugs hurt her, but we also feel the pain. All these changes have leave my physical as well as my mental being imbalanced and disturbed. Mixtures of emotions all twisted up and locked up with nowhere to escape. I feel unsatisfied and yearns to be more and live more. Chains, locks and bonds keep me tied up and unable to breathe. Worry, fatigue and anxiety makes me feel worn down. I'm fighting with myself more and more and I don't know what I'm waiting for and where I'm supposed to go. Responsibilities, duties and expectations kept me bottled up. Dreams, frustrations and longings keeps fluttering away. Doubts and unknowns makes me unease and tend to change my mind and cower. I'm feeling lost and discouraged. But the worst of all of these... I can't really explain why I'm feeling this way...
A life where everything changes.
A time where nothing stood still.
One day here, gone the next.
One moment well, the other ail.
The entropy of the universe.
The condemnation of the living.
All sorrows turn to ashes.
All melodies turn to grief.
For joy, we sacrifice.
For peace, we submit.
When memories turns pity.
When future turns cloudy.
What things ought giving.
What actions ought regretting.
Living each day while forgetting.
Living each minute with bindings.
Of what value are riches and treasures.
Of what meaning is love and forgiveness.
Crying with silence of pain.
Crying with tears that hurt.
Random thoughts flying through.
Random words spoken out.
Phrases that objects each other.
Phrases that fought each other.
Endless music keeps playing.
Endless breaking keeps shattering.
Into infinity it can bring.
Into emptiness it can fall.
Cold wind drifting by.
Cold hearts melting ice.
The degradation of everything we would once know...
The degradation of something we could never find flaw...
